In find myself in a very interesting position this week. If you read my last post, you are aware of my move and transition to New York City. I've been here for a little bit over a week and a lot has happened since I landed. Long story short and sparing the gory details, I'm moving back to Atlanta. Yea, I know right CRAZY!
I realized pretty quickly after being in the city for few days, that I felt like my timing was off. I figured out that I should have spent more time building friendships and business relationships to make the transition easier. It had nothing to do with New York, or the busyness, or even making it in the city. I fit in pretty well in New York and was able to get around just fine. The subway makes so much sense and I really was able to adapt pretty quickly to functioning as a New Yorker. Despite those facts, I still felt like I had rushed my move. Although I had a few emotional days where I felt trapped by my decision, I had so much clarity to what I was really needing at this point in my life. Although I love New York and know that I will most definitely live here in the future, I'm craving financial stability and consistency; two things that moving to New York in a hurry will not provide.
How do you move to New York and then move back to Atlanta in 1 week you ask? I was fortunate enough to have a job offer back in Atlanta, that made the decision fairly simple. I was smart and sublet-ed an apartment in New York, so I wasn't really stuck or committed to staying here. Better to realize it sooner than several months down the line where I would have been stuck in a lease and without the funds to move across the country.....again.
Ha...so here I am preparing to fly back to Atlanta, find a new apartment, start a new job, and rebuild my life all over again. I completely understand how ridiculous that sounds, but I actually have peace of mind about my decision. If I hadn't come to New York, I wouldn't have realized that I wasn't done with Atlanta. There is still so much more that I can accomplish and create there. I now have that clarity and drive to do that when I return tomorrow on my 8:00am flight. I was in such a hurry to get out of there that I neglected to realize what I had built in Atlanta these past 5 years. I have so many wonderful friends and connections that I have built there as well as many opportunities for work and creative ventures. Sometimes it takes making a colossal mistake to make you realize something about yourself. I've never been more sober and clear headed than when I spent my first night in my new sublet in the city. I felt so completely out of place and not where I belonged. I had so much clarity about what I should have done. You cannot work in New York if you don't know anyone. It simply wont happen. I put myself in a very vulnerable position where I would have had a very hard time staying afloat. While that may be some peoples path, I have a chance to go back to a city that I know and that offers me a great job that will allow me to invest in my life as an adult. Even though your 20's are seen as the time to "have fun" and "live while your'e young", I see that my decisions will result in what is available to me in my 30's and 40's. I'm choosing to invest in myself and work now and SAVE. I cannot stress enough how important savings is for what you want in life. It will inevitable affect your ability to have what you want in life.
Lecture and rant over......now I need to pack
I had the amazing opportunity to shoot with photographer Patrick of Modern Gypsy Media in Brooklyn and had a blast creating these grungy images.